My best friend asked me this question over six years ago when I told him I wanted to transition. It took me off guard (probably as much as my revelation did to him), but as indecisive as I can be, I had my answer (more or less, Rain's answer) very quickly.
I knew I wanted to use that question in this comic; it was and still is one of the most intelligent things I think I've ever been asked.
You might recall that just a few pages ago, I said, "if most transgender people could just stop being transgender, they would." I maintain this stance. However, to "stop being transgender" to the average trans person, would very likely mean that trans women would just be cis women, and trans men would just be cis men. To go on being the sex we were genetically forced into won't do us any good.
For instance, I read this fascinating article a few years back (I wish I could remember the link). It was about a study, where they tried to hypnotize trans people to make them not trans; in other words, to make them accept what they're given. I don't put much stock into hypnotism as is, but this perhaps seemed somewhat efficient on paper. The idea was to create a faster, safer, cheaper alternative to getting a sex change. Those who were successfully hypnotized, showed that an alarming majority of them either started to show signs of being transgender again in a short time, or they fell into a terrible depression that they couldn't describe; as though they were still deeply troubled by something, but couldn't place why.
Okay, I promised myself I'd try not to get too preachy with this comic, so I hope these past few commentaries haven't been too much.
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Pretty damn awesome still :D
i dont think anyone minds your commontary, food for the mind. continue with your great progress on the comic.
First off, HI, Love the comic so far, its hard to find fiction that is based on TG themes i think, and i identify alot with rain.
a question though, black wings kaminari...Its a non copyright infringing take on Mahou Sensei nagima right? A girl with black wings kicked out of her homeland who travels with a boy mage? the parallells are there. Im not sure if anyone caught that already or if its a mad coincidence. but i would like an answer if you dont mind?
Really well put. Do you mind if I use it sometimes?
I'm FTM and the idea of being a girl makes me feel sick to my stomach but sometimes I do feel like I wish I could just wake up and be a normal girl... But most of the time when I've even tried to convince myself to be a girl I just end up feeling wrong.
I wish I could be as sure as she is. I always have doubts, and fears that I really am just a guy who can't accept what I am and the like.
Rereading this, this is probably my favorite page. It just captures everything so perfectly. I'd never want to trade in who I am to 'fix' myself. I need transition because I want to be me, and I'm a woman, and I don't want to be corrosively changed into a man that I'm not.
That hypnosis thing sounds very scary. Kinda horrifying even. While I can't stand the idea of hypnosis already (Thanks, creepypasta, for ruining the Hypno Pokemon for me), the part saying there was an alarming number of depressed people that could never again know why they were so depressed makes me even more scared.
Okay I'm just gonna stop right here and take a breath. this page hit home for me more than anything. especially since I am transgender. I am literally crying right now because of how true what rain said rings for me. It may be a long road ahead of me, but I look forward to going down that road with my friends. cause I know they'll always be by my side
...and I give the exact opposite answer. I don't see this as a part of my identity that I'm proud of, I see it as a birth defect that causes significant distress. I will do whatever is easiest to fix it.