The Author's Transition

posted April 17th, 2013, 10:35 am


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April 17th, 2013, 10:40 am

LittleLynn84

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Okay, I don't normally share this type of thing here, because it's not REALLY comic-related (you may have noticed, I just change my icon here every month to show progress). But Rain IS about a transgirl, so I think it's applicable enough. After all, I'm sharing this one everywhere else; I may as well post it here too. ^_^

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Not gonna lie. I was real nervous about doing this! So, do be gentle. XD

Anyway, I'm seven months on hormones today, and I've been wanting to make the comparison pic for a while. I took the "before" picture way back then strictly so I COULD do this someday (I just wasn't exactly sure when). Of course, I say "way back then", but really, for seven months, the time has flown.

But I chose now because, I dunno, I just feel more convinced of myself than ever before. I don't know what caused that; I mean, very little that I'm aware of changed this past month. All my measurements are exactly where they were last month. Even my weight was, oddly enough, identical down to the decimal point (actually, that kind of impressed me). I noticed my leg and arm hair is growing slower and a little lighter. I shave it anyway, so it's not really a big deal to me, but it's still kinda cool (it'd be cooler if it was the facial hair, but you know...).

So yeah, I think it's just confidence, plain and simple. I feel better about myself as I go. So I end up trying harder to effectively maintain that. So I end up looking better as a result and passing better. This all lends to a vicious circle of self-appreciation. I mean, here I am, thinking I look more authentically femme than ever, and for the first time, I also don't think I even look like the same person. Coincidence?

It's kind of eerie seeing these two pics side by side. I know it wasn't that long ago that I really looked like that fellow to the left, but it just seems like such a foreign idea to me now. If I weren't me, I'd probably think those two were brother and sister (which is itself funny because I totally DO look like my actual sister now). XD

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Comments are welcome, but if you're thinking anything mean-spirited or disparaging, please keep it to yourself. Thank you.

And actually, I'd also like to see NO self-defeating comments below either ('cause I tend to get those). One of the big reasons I post progress photos, is as an inspiration for others like me. I'm not trying to boast here; I want to remind people that this is possible. Give you a goal to strive for. Because until seven months ago, I feared that this would never happen. I believed that the only place I'd see that second image is in my dreams. But I worked hard for this (am still working hard), and I think it shows. And one of the biggest inspirations for myself advancing this far, was other trans people showing their progress online. I'm just giving back what was given to me.

So please, don't beat yourself up. If you were going to say something like "you're so pretty and I'm not" or "I'll never look that good", don't. That's not the compliment you think it is. And I guarantee you're more beautiful than you give yourself credit for. If you're going to include yourself in your comment, try to say something nice. Not for me. For you. If you don't, I will. And when I do, don't tell me I'm wrong or deny it; I know what I mean, and I mean what I say.

Thank you, everyone. I love you all, and I wish you a wonderful day. ^_^

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April 17th, 2013, 11:01 am

ShanaFlareon

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wow congrats you look great!

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April 17th, 2013, 11:10 am

renchikolul

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wow you look gorgeous makes me hopefully for the day I get hormones maybe. While im a transmale though I feel happy to know I can relate to somone here in smackjeeves it takes courage to show people what you once looked liked because of the judging people do.For a long time I thought if I showed my feminite side of the picture of when i was a girl I would be automaticly be treated as a girl or asked why did you change you were so beautiful. Actually that was true for the most part but here in college with my supportive friends who see me as male I dont care . Im even doing drag and dressing as Barbie xD. When i put the make up and drss I think wow I look gorgeous but still feel wried because I'm a guy who looks that good as a girl and my friends think the same. I dont mind doing drag or crossdressing/female cosplay as long as I feel male and am treated as such. Thank you so much for your comic and for this chance to see into your life. It real helps.

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April 17th, 2013, 1:06 pm

LilyFlareVII

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You look beautiful! While I'm not trans I can kind of relate. I'm obese and I dream of a day when the fit me in my head is a reality. And I know that becoming thin isn't as scary as trying to pass as the other gender, but I've never been thin my whole life, so it really does scare me. I'm not sure I'd know what to do if I could suddenly where cute clothes or go up and down my stairs without getting winded. Hope that doesn't sound like I'm trying to demean your progress in any way. I just think if you can do what it takes to be the person you want to be, maybe I can too. Keep up the great work hun and don't forget to update us with anymore good news!

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April 17th, 2013, 1:57 pm

BlackRose666

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Wow you look amazing!!!
Congrats

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April 17th, 2013, 2:07 pm

Snowwater

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WOW, You look so good now! Really, you're gorgeous ^_^

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April 17th, 2013, 2:08 pm

LittleLynn84

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@renchikolul:

If it makes you feel any better, you wouldn't be the first transmale dragqueen I'd met. So seriously, more power to you in that.

And my best wishes go out to you for your own transition someday. ^_^

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April 17th, 2013, 2:15 pm

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@LilyFlareVII:

I don't think it's demeaning at all. Your goals for yourself are just as important as mine are. The way I see it, we're both just people who have things we want to change about ourselves because it'll (ideally) make us happier.

So, in that regard, I wish you the very best in your future exploits as well. Take care! ^_^

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April 17th, 2013, 3:52 pm

Morrigan_DeLevain

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You are so adorable! ^_^ And you look so much happier. Good for you.

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April 17th, 2013, 5:46 pm

someone (Guest)

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Oh wow! You've really made progress; you don't even look like the same person. You look a lot happier, too. :) It must take a lot of courage to post a picture of the old you. Congratulations!

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April 17th, 2013, 9:17 pm

thime

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You are absolutely fantabulous. Like for reals, though. Congrats on being able to pursue yourself!

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April 17th, 2013, 11:39 pm

Elswyerian

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You look awesome! I'm really happy for you :)

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April 19th, 2013, 9:38 am

AmyC89 (Guest)

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Wow LittleLynn you look great and I hope you feel great too!
All my love goes to you for your dedication and courage.
P.S. The "results" (I couldn't think of a less-crass way of putting it) of your hard work definitely paid off. <3

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April 19th, 2013, 8:03 pm

Ph03n1x

wow

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you have made a seriously big change and you look beautiful. In my eyes learning this just makes you more awesome, btw im kinda like a ky but reverse so i may be biassed :p

huge fan of this comic and i cant wait for future pages.

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April 21st, 2013, 7:25 pm

Valley

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What?!?! Oh sorry, miss, staring at your cleavage. @^_^@
I would say something amazingly amazing and awesome but feel it would fall short and sound false. You look good. Kind of amazed at the weight thing - wish I could hold it in one spot. See? Not just checking you out but listening to you. Er...well, reading what you were saying...er..typing.
(As humor depends on who you are and how you react to it I hope I offended nobody by suggesting that she is sexy-cute. As you were.)

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April 21st, 2013, 8:45 pm

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@Valley:

No need to apologize. I'm honored and flattered that you think so. You have to understand, after nearly three decades of hating my appearance and having others treat me like some kind of creep, being called "sexy-cute" is a pretty refreshing change of pace. ^_^

So, thank you~!

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April 22nd, 2013, 3:13 pm

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wow
it's amazing how much you've changed, got boobs and everything<3
and under such a short time..
that is some strong stuff, you've got there!
I don't think anyone who didn't know would notice :)

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April 24th, 2013, 4:15 pm

oipteaapdoce

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You look awesome! :) You also look much happier too, and from the inside. Nice to see.

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April 26th, 2013, 12:38 pm

Spinmuffins (Guest)

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Boobies!

Wow... I had no idea you actually started hrt - though I did pick up on the changing profile images. You're doing well, glad to hear that you're so much happier and able to share that moment to look back at how far you've come ^.^

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May 1st, 2013, 4:45 pm

Haldo (Guest)

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YOU. ARE. GORGEOUS.

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May 6th, 2013, 4:49 pm

Lenn

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I think the best transition I see here is the one between a serious face to a smile =)

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May 8th, 2013, 4:07 pm

rijinomega

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happy for ya

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October 1st, 2013, 1:23 am

MiguelCC51 (Guest)

Hey!

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Looking good!

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October 5th, 2013, 3:52 pm

Tabula (Guest)

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Wow... that change is amazing!

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October 5th, 2013, 10:13 pm

Dieter (Guest)

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That's pretty amazing a change.

I think a lot of it too is that you look SOOOOO much happier now.

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November 23rd, 2013, 11:46 am

KittyK (Guest)

OMG

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OMG you look absolutely gorgeous. And I must say I was not expecting that much of progress after only 7 months... I'll be hopefully starting on my hormones soon O_O I'd love to get in touch... I am trying to find people who have gone through what I'm going through... I'm going to stop now.... lol

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November 27th, 2013, 10:59 am

IndigoMoon (Guest)

:D

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You look great! I look up to because of how awesome you are. Thank you for writing this series :)

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December 15th, 2013, 11:08 pm

PSA

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*Rushes in all late* You look wonderful and I'm so glad I found your comic!!

Thank you for remembering us Aces :D

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January 28th, 2014, 1:22 am

Rain (Guest)

^_^

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You look beautiful, the side-by-side makes your progress look really amazing.

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March 14th, 2014, 1:18 am

Crankit

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AMAZING! You look gorgeous here!

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April 23rd, 2014, 12:45 pm

Elizabeth (Guest)

WOW! Very Impressive!

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I hope I look that good at 7 months! I started with the therapist, and got the process going. I'm in-between -- intersexed. I was wondering if you might put a character in that was not one gender or another, but both? It might give a different flavor to the interactions of the characters. I can even give you advice on my experiences in school (not good most of the time) about this. The big question is this: if you're cross gendered, what defines cross dressing?

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July 27th, 2014, 7:31 pm

RobinTheGrey

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Good on you!

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August 20th, 2014, 10:57 am

Chronos (Guest)

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great for you ,you are such a gorgeous women :)

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October 8th, 2014, 8:50 pm

Nibbles7989

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you are absolutely gorgeous!

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February 11th, 2015, 4:09 am

MediocreArts

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o////o so pretty...

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May 26th, 2015, 6:08 pm

Alex (Guest)

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You look adorable! I love your style, too. This might be a long time in the past for you by now, but still. I'm transmasculine, non-binary, and even without transitioning, someone used he/him pronouns with me the other day and it made my day. I 100% agree with your commentary that no one here should be complimenting you while insulting themselves. That's not productive or fair. We're all making progress <3

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July 21st, 2015, 4:07 pm

Akari (Guest)

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if not for the before picture I never would have figured it out without prior context.

Guess my TRANSiever doesn't work too well.

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August 2nd, 2015, 12:33 am

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You're beautiful! :D And might I say I like your female look much better than the male one? Because I do.

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November 16th, 2015, 2:50 pm

very-burnt-cinnamon-roll

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wow awesome! you look great!

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February 12th, 2016, 4:13 pm

Charlotte057

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Congratulations! :D

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April 11th, 2016, 12:33 am

Silva Lunae (Guest)

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; ; you're like Rain irl -hides- i honestly can't wait to begin to transition, it's a bit weird since I'm agender but I want to appear more male. It's nice to see someone I look up to (you) becoming happier and more toward what you feel. -hides- thank you for writing this and posting this and everything.

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November 7th, 2016, 12:22 am

Faith_Or_Alex

Omg!

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You look amazing!! i just wanna say Congrats!!! I am actualy saving monie right now to help my friend to get hid hormones and stuff he is FTM. I am gonna show this to him, i hope it inspires him as much as it did me.

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December 27th, 2016, 9:16 am

Zane LaBrosse (Guest)

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Oh! You've changed so much and, honestly, you look better now! So pretty! I wish I was that far. Ma won't let me get hormones because she doesn't want me to transition and realize I was wrong. It sucks but I am just glad I found this comic. Not only do I have supportive friends and Ma, I also have something to read that's relatable. I'm glad this comic exist, now I don't feel as left out as a trans man. I'm thankful for your love for writing and drawing.

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February 26th, 2017, 9:09 am

Misgenderedgorilla (Guest)

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You're so beautiful

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April 4th, 2017, 11:35 pm

Toni (Guest)

Beautiful

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A little late, but congratulations. You are beautiful. I just started reading the series. Thank you for the story, and the pictures. It may seem like a little thing to some, but it gives me hope.

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June 4th, 2017, 2:40 pm

WoodlandBaton94

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Oh goodness you're so prettyyy

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June 27th, 2017, 2:52 pm

ThatRandomGal

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Wow, you are so pretty! ^_^ I'm very happy for you!

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July 2nd, 2017, 5:33 pm

AnonymousMe

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You're so pretty! I'm like Ky(lie) and when I am male I can only pass as pre-teen. Honestly though, this is an awesome series and I wish I had found it sooner! Me and my friends are a lot like Rain and her friends, but maybe more confusing? We've got someone who came out as trans-male but currently goes as non-binary, me, the confusing pansexual genderfluid(?) one, my friend, the female straight one who is dating the non-binary one, an asexual person (and I think heteromantic), and a bisexual person who may or may not be homoromantic. Also my other gay friend. Yep.

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