Poor Rain. For those of you who are less familiar with the experience, dysphoria really is just this constant downward spiral. Once one little thing sets a person off, their mind starts wandering to every other crap thing in their life. At least, that’s my experience.
And then poor Maria. She wants to help; she can’t just let her friend beat herself up like this. But she doesn’t seem to be having much luck.
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Rain is lucky to be so short and feminine considering the fact that she hasn't started transitioning yet...
Is that just luck or was she on some sort of blockers and I just didn't see it? O_o
Maria... You can help Rain by kissing her... ^_^
She's had no blockers or anything yet . It's just luck, honestly. I know that's unfortunately not always what happens, but I myself am short and had feminine features even before hormones. So in this case, I'm primarily just using my own experience for her character.
My heart hurts alongside Rain. We all know this feeling too damn well. Sure it's great if you're lucky and look close to the way you want, but it's so hard to see even that sometimes, past the parts that are still *so wrong*.
Rain feels like a more complete character after the last chapter and these two pages. Awesome character development.
Also, I feel for Rain. I've been on hormones for 1.5 years now and still have moments like that.
Even through shes a girl and im a boy I understand how she feels . It kinda creeps me out how simiilar the experience yeah know. For me its my period when I went to college I would get extremely depressed and call my bro he so funny he'd say we all blood from the ass then hed tell me his experience and make me laugh. But sometime he pisses me off when it happens and he does something like what Maria did with assuming genders. Cant blame him though its his upbring and this town we live in cant go anywhare without someone joking about me/harrasing me about if im a girl or boy.
@Thinking: Um... Rain's in a relationship with someone else, and all indications so far are that they're monogamous. We also don't know for sure whether she even likes girls. So no, that would more likely be the opposite of help :P
Also, Maria's in a relationship with someone else. That'd be a huge can of worms!
...fought with a bout of dysphoria early this weekend. That seems to be over, but now I'm having the most spectacularly bad day at work (I'm seriously worried about getting fired). At least Rain makes me smile a little.
Ouch. Sorry to hear. My best wishes go out to you.
@LittleLynn84: Thank you very much. Your comment means a great deal to me.
That's a very acurate definition of dysphoria... .__.
I honestly have nothing else to say except that I feel bad for Rain. Ugh, that must be such a pain.
LYNN FIX IT! FIX IT! D; PLZ.
totally the theme song for this comic: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pFbjE7NFmUI
Rain honey... I feel her pain, I really do. Sometimes, even when you're surrounded by other people, dysphoria can still make you feel like the loneliest person in the world, which is the feeling I'm getting from her in that last panel.
This page is honestly just all kinds of nostalgic for me.. and not in a good way. Seriously, hurry up and get Rain her blockers already! I know that there's probably some more character development to do, but I don't wanna see the poor thing suffer any longer than she has too! Even if she is a fictional character, my heart's breaking for her with this page and the last. :[
How did Rain know the first January Girl is a January Transgirl? I mean, foreshadowing already points to that for the audience, but how does Rain know?
She doesn't know anything about the January Girl. And she's never even SEEN the January Boy. She's merely - in her dysphoric state - presenting a "what if" question. Rain's depressed, so she's reaching at straws to make herself feel better. It's as if to say, "Wouldn't it be nice if I weren't the only transgirl going to this school?"
The fact is, she doesn't know anything. Nobody does. ^_^
Sometimes I wish I drank coffee when I was young or something. Im freaking 6 ft tall.
*sigh* oh well. at least Im not super masculine. Masculine enough to make me upset sometimes but not too terribly bad I guess..
It doesn't have to be long... or even on the lips. But it'll help her feel better. Besides, girls can do that in society without any backlash. Maria can even say she's European! ^_^
@Rain: I feel your pain, I'm 6'1. Tall is beautiful though!
Watch Uma Thurman in... anything really. She's tall, powerful, and gorgeous. She made me feel more at peace with my height at least. :3
Poor Rain.. :( Hang in there, girl. It gets better step by step.
Dysphoria is definitely a recurring event in my life. It gets better when I socialize online as myself, and worse when I can't.
Also...and this might sound weird...does anyone else get this kinda phantom limb thing going on? Like, you can feel the parts of yourself you SHOULD have, but you've never had them before, so you wouldn't know what they feel like? It's almost as though your brain knows what those parts are supposed to feel like, and doesn't draw those feelings from memory. At least there's no pain associated with it...well, no PHYSICAL pain...