Not gonna lie. I’ve been nervous about posting this page. Pretty much everything from here to the end of the chapter went through SO MANY rewrites. There was a lot of me debating how forward I wanted to be with the subject, or if I wanted to keep dancing around the issue. Arguably, I did a bit of both here (since Rain is clearly fighting with her feelings here, and Chanel can only speculate). But this is still a pretty huge development. I mean, I’ve been writing this comic for over two and a half years, and we’re finally getting at least a little perspective on the main character’s orientation (which is, as always, never simple).
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This is very relevant to my own personal life right now, but the other way around. I'm finding i'm only sexually attracted to men, but romantically more attracted to women and queer people...
*all the hugs!* :C
I think it's really good that you're exploring this issue :)
That remind me the discussion between Maria and Gavin, where Maria stated she may not be gay because she had a crush on Rain, and Gavin to answer her that Rain is cuter than almost every girls in school.
Those situation aren't easy to go through but time solve everything and don't forget that "normal" is just a easy word for "common to most people"
Don't worry Rain! Normal is just a setting on the washing machine! :D ..Well.. that doesn't make it less harder to deal with not being 'average' :(
I like how we're finally exploring Rain's inner thoughts, but I wish Chanel didn't say she kind of took offence right now. This is just my thought; but I feel like if a friend is confiding in you and is upset, their feelings should be a priority until they calm down...Chanel could always just let Rain know later when she's feeling okay...
o 3o but this development, I can't even~ <3
NO MORE DOMA YAY
I don't know if I should be happy or sad everytime I discover how much this comic speaks right out of my soul... ._.
maybe rain is bi and in denial or maybe heteroromantic but sexually attracted to females or maybe she is a lesbian who doesnt want to accept it and she just happens to like rudy romantically
Awwww *hugs* for Rain...
I have spent more than a year trying to get this straight (bad unintentional pun) in my head and am still no closer.
If only society was really okay with people being attracted to who they are attracted to, this kind of angst wouldn't weigh so heavily on so many people.
I think Rain deserves a hug more now then ever, plus I think it's good for Rain to get her feelings out and to have someone tell her that it is ok to feel that way, I think with all that has happened to Rain in the last comics, this one had to happen
...You know, it never occurred to me that Rain would be upset by not being straight, just because a lot of the gay transgender people I've met personally were so preoccupied with worrying about their gender that they didn't worry about their sexuality... I guess this happens sometimes with transgender people, too, though.
I like that each character has a distinct perspective on gender and sexuality. It makes conversations like this more interesting.
There, there Rain...
I'm in the belief that straight females are the abnormal ones anyways... ^_^
Besides, if done right, people will focus on your lesbianism and not your transgenderness, right?
Besides, lesbians are far more accepted in society anyway.
how bout a hug?
I think this was really well written. Nice job. I also like the character development with Chanel.
poor rain but she needs to understand that sexuality is very fluid. Im panromatic Im not really sexually attracted to people or desire sex . I do have fansties and do um masturbate (god I cant believe im saying this but it feels important)but I just don't feel it for actual people. I rather have a romantic relationship. I love how you address these things , sexual orientation is never something simple or easy.
I sorta know how Rain feels. I mean, before my transition I identified as a straight male. Once I transitioned I realized I lost cis privilege, male privilege, as well as straight privilege. Suddenly I was not only trans, I was lesbian too! I could no longer marry my girlfriend if I wanted to. People no longer looked at my relationships the same. I am lucky enough to be able to go stealth if I want as I have never been clocked, but suddenly being gay really threw me for a loop. I feel like Rain here is dealing with that very same sentiment.
I know these feels too well.
It's like, I'm romantically attracted to men, but sexually attracted pretty much only to women and the top top top 1% of model-beauty men, i.e. one in 10000. An average guy just doesn't do anything for me.
I decided to live as a man anyways, because my transition ran into unsolvable problems after 7 months so I had to abort...so now I live as a man but feel like 70%-80% woman 30%-20% man...
But women don't want me...they want a manly man, not a girl in a man's body who doesn't naturally act manly...it has caused me so much trouble and abuse from straight women who played me and tortured me...and men are sexually incompatible with me... so I'll be foreveralone and forever stuck in a wrong body. It fucking sucks so much *cries*
I know I'd be sexually attracted to men if I had a real vaj but I don't and never will. And I wouldn't have wanted a neovag, to me it's just a facade that you have to dilute every day.
F it all....
I know that, after I realized I was trans, I spent a while "trying" to be straight - looking at pictures of women, trying to make myself be attracted to women, trying not to pay attention to men. But eventually I realized, nah, I'm gay*, and that's cool. Being gay doesn't make me any less of a man.
*well, pretty much... I've been attracted to a couple women, but they're more exceptions; 98% of the people I'm attracted to are men.
Every time I try to explain why I struggled with being attracted to girls as a teenager nobody understands. Nobody. They think that just because I was born with a male body it somehow makes it easy. It doesn't. I still saw myself as a girl. And as a trans woman, I wanted something "normal" about me. Even though I'm mostly okay with being a lesbian now, I still have my days where I struggle. Makes me feel a little less alone to know there may be other trans women who know what it's like.
Its easy to understand whats going in her mind. Shes trans and dealing with all the nuttiness of being that and transition and such (BTW isnt she already in transition, she doesnt need to start hormones to claim that)
So she is trying to get her life into the "normal" area. Which to her feelings also include heterosexuality, because well its more "normal" (read it common, accepted, etc) Now that she is coming to grips and having a hard time (no pun intended) with her transition, she finds out she might be lesbian too.
So now she also has to deal with this on top of transition /dies
Hey..I've been reading this comic for some time now...and I was wondering...I'm female, I think girls are pretty...but I can't see myself sexually with them...I won't lie though like I lie irl all the time...I am with a girl atm...secret..an we've done some shit...but...I don't wanna say anything cause I have a bad life ...But I think I'm trans....I can't figure this damn crap out...I'm really afraid of sex in general though, I feel like a hypocrite...I don't know. Sorry, with so many other comments around this, I sorta felt the need to let it out...@-@ don't be too harsh
Rain - Women are cute. It has nothing to do with hormones or gender. Women are lovely to look at after billions of years of evolution. Art in flesh. Only way to make them more perfect is of course...cat ears. Maybe a cute tail. >^_^<
Rest of you -HUG-
Also I kind of link sexuality to cultural limits. Also a lot of it is linked to DNA, scent, and body language but I'm not going to do a data dump on you folks.
Aww rain :(
This is actually exactly how I feel - only with time I put men aside as no matter how nice they may be, they jut don't have that special something women do...
Come to the gay side, Rain! >:D
Quite a few questions.
So where does kissing fit into this? Isn't kissing a physical expression of affection? If one isn't attracted in any real physical way, then how does one feel the urge to kiss?
And is what Chanel saying mean that sexual attraction is apparently deeper than romantic attraction?
It really is quite complicated. Probably there's no wonder we cis people have a hard time understanding it. If trans people are still figuring things out for themselves, how can we who are on the outside expect to get anything?
If I were Maria Chanel's stating the facts so coldly would be rather ouch. I mean, "I'm not attracted to Maria in any physical way, [..]". I hope Maria×Chanel doesn't end as badly as Rain×Rudy is starting to.
As for Rain being not-so-normal in more than one way, Funny, isn't it, how being trans not just turns your life upsidown on its own but also changes your perspective on a lot of other things you took for granted. And I mean that in a 'funny, but not really, at least not until it's all a few years in the past' way.