Source of Pain

posted October 27th, 2013, 9:47 pm


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October 27th, 2013, 10:04 pm

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Using Jessica to channel my feelings again, and address something more.

There’s a common trait I’ve noticed among many transfolk who begin transition later in life begrudging the younger generations who’ve had the opportunity to start in their teen years, preteen years, or even younger. I’ve done it myself in the past, but it’s a trait I didn’t like in myself (or anyone), so I’ve tried to get over it. I still suffer the occasional twinge of jealousy, but I’m a big girl, so I should really try to act like it.

Did I start transition later in life than I would have liked? Oh god, yes. Does that mean I’m unhappy now because I didn’t get to live the first 28 years of my life the way I wanted to? Yeah. But you know, I’m still the happiest I’ve ever been. All it really means is that I shouldn’t waste my time sulking and make the most of the next however many years I have left on this earth. I want to be happy. I want everyone else to be happy. Why would I (or anyone) begrudge anyone else that right?

While I’m on the subject of age, I want to stress to some of my older readers who wish to transition but have not: there is no right or wrong time to start. It’s not necessarily easier when you’re younger (so don’t think you’ve missed some arbitrary window), and it’s not necessarily harder when you’re older (I know people who have started in their 30s, 40s, 50s, and even 60s; they’re doing great). There’s also some myth I’ve heard a few times that hormones have no effect after age 25-35 (every time I hear it, the age varies). I want to debunk the hell out of this. I mean, I’m almost thirty (certainly over 25), and the effects I’ve experienced have been phenomenal (honestly, better than I’d hoped for). The same goes for many of the older trans folk I know. Perhaps it’s slightly less effective then it could have been, but I don’t for a moment believe there’s actually a cutoff when it just becomes outright ineffective.

In the end, if you want to transition – young or old – I think you should.

I’m preachier than usual, today. I guess I had a lot on my mind with this one. ^^;

Also, I posted a page yesterday by accident. If you missed it, you may want to check back a page. Regardless, I'm leaving things the way they are and continuing posts as usual. Don't expect a habit of this, but I'm neither going to take it down nor make you wait longer for the next page to compensate. I'm not going to punish you for my silly mistake. Just consider it a freebie. ^_^


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Rain, all characters and all other aspects of the story are copyright material belonging to me.

Also, I'm saving for SRS, and to be perfectly honest, I could use your help! If you can, great. If not, don’t worry about it. I totally understand (you don't need to feel bad or apologize if you can’t).
http://www.gofundme.com/4ql0j4

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October 27th, 2013, 10:39 pm

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Now I am wondering if I can find that one cmic strip I found at random some time ago :P

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October 27th, 2013, 10:42 pm

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@Drakanor Dream:

Which strip was this?

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October 28th, 2013, 1:32 am

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Whoo! Free page!

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October 28th, 2013, 3:17 am

Hannah (Guest)

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@LittleLynn84: No kidding your results have been phenomenal, your "7 months on hormones" picture made my jaw drop, your chest in particular. I REALLY hope I'm not getting too personal, I just wanted to say I'm jealous, I started hormones when I was 21, and now almost 2 and a half years later I'm like... maybe a small b cup? haha

NOT that I'm hard done by, I'm 6'1, a skinny thing (which is probably part of why my chest hasn't seen much in the way of results after so long on estrogen), and I look like I should be working a run way when I get all dolled up, but I digress. I am not plying for pity (or being spiteful of people who've seen better results in certain areas than myself), just trying to add a little more perspective to the whole "Don't get discouraged before you try it" thing Jocelyn was saying in the OP because you never really know what's going to happen regardless of age. :P

YOUR body is what YOU make of it, never underestimate the power of confidence people! Also, yes I realize this post is all over the place, so sue me I couldn't figure out a way to properly condense my message about self confidence being an invaluable weapon in the fight for a successful transition! ;_; (Also that hormones work differently for everybody and so you shouldn't let things like age discourage you)

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October 28th, 2013, 4:57 pm

Allie (Guest)

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I'm embarrassed and ashamed to admit that I sometimes have the same involuntary jealousy and resentment, although in my case the jealousy is less about the past than the present (ie, transitioning younger would have meant transitioning "more successfully" for want of a better phrase, particularly if it was young enough to stop the effects of testosterone-based puberty early)

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October 28th, 2013, 10:04 pm

Danielle (Guest)

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I started when I was 25. It was actually 2 weeks after I turned 25. I knew very well what I had to do when I was 18 but repressed it because of the relationship I was in. I'm mad at myself for that... and I'm insanely jealous of anyone who started younger than I did.

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October 29th, 2013, 3:25 pm

Sarah (Guest)

love the comic :--)

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Hey,

Just wanted to let you know, i've been reading your webcomic for a little while now and it's great! Imho it's one of the better transgender related comics out here on the internet :--).

grtz,

Sarah x

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December 30th, 2014, 11:26 am

Kimiko (Guest)

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Meh, I think feeling jelly of others happens to everyone at some point. You get over it. I mean, if we had our druthers we'd all have been born the right gender. No amount of wishing is going to change it though, so you'll just have to work with what you have.

As for female hormones, yah, the only way for that to be really effective is to start before puberty I guess.

Also, happy-crying Rain is adorbs ^_^

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