I toiled quite a bit with whether I wanted this update to be one or two pages. The first page alone would have been perhaps more impacting. But I feared it'd also be a huge downer on it's own (when I just got done saying a few blurbs ago this would be a lighter chapter). In the end, I went the lighter route. But anyway...
On the one hand, you could perhaps argue that if Colin wasn't feeling like he could adapt to this, it was probably a responsible move for everyone's sake that he not pursue any kind of relationship with Fara. On the other hand, I personally don't believe it's ever impossible to adapt. Aiken has known about Rain for almost as long as Colin has (give or take a few hours), and look how far he's come. The thing about adapting though, is that you've got to want it. Aiken wants to have a positive relationship with his little sister, even if it's hard for him. Colin wants straight-forward and simple. There's nothing inherently wrong with wanting things to be simple, but it doesn't leave much - if any - room for change if need be. What's left is the possibility of change... but that's on him.
This first page is a huge departure from the kinds of interactions we're probably used to in this story, and I expect some readers will probably be frustrated by it. Not only is Colin not trying to change, but he doesn't even leave Fara a chance to make any kind of counterpoint. He just says his piece (while keeping it surpisingly civil), and walks out. It's super frustrating.
Can it really end like that though? Have we seen the last of Colin?
As for the second page, let's get to the point: I know the name is never dropped (that's on purpose), but I am hoping it's completely obvious who Jessica is suggesting to Fara.
Rain, all characters and all other aspects of the story are copyright material belonging to me.
Jessica is on the side of justice and Colin is gone!
*starts chanting* ....Vincent Vincent Vincent......
@jazgemo213: pls. Obviously, it's gonna be Father Quenton that Jessica is talking about. :p
@Drizzle Flaherty: Clearly Jessica is trying to score herself a date >.>
@Asuyuia: I'm okay with that.
@Asuyuia: Hmm... What's a good Jessica x Fara ship name? Flessica or Jara?
@TallMist: Maybe Farica?
@Asuyuia: Farica it is!
Colin are both positive and negative at the same time. He's honest about his feelings and his fears. he also knows his limits.
But the way he goes about it is wrong, Colin said anything as a statement. He roughly no chance for the person to respond say, how they feel about it
it's good here the Colin knows what he wants in a relationship and wants to go for or hate him because he being so close minded. big point of most of the story is choice. And, excepting everyone
the other side of that also respect and not some people will be comfortable with it. No matter what
Colin gets credits for honesty, self-awareness, and being forthright.
He apparently never saw a need to apologize to Fara, though.
And while he apparently has come to a better understanding of what it means to be transgender, he's found in his mind a wall of weirdness that he can't get through at this time.
He isn't evil, or even bad... but it's nonetheless good that he apparently won't be a part of Fara's or Rain's life.
Which means that, most likely, he'll never again hit a situation where he would NEED to get through that wall of weirdness. Quite a lot of people (most, I suspect) never have to *knowingly* deal with the fact of someone being transgender - let alone someone close to them.
(And while I like the notion of Jessica trying to get a date with Fara, sorry, she used "him" to refer to whomever she's talking about. My bet is she means Vincent.)
Aw. Kind of disappointed Fara couldn't forgive him. Not so they could go out again, but just so that they could part without grudges.
And another reason why I hate homophobia and transphobia. It not only cause suffering to the LGBT people, but also their allies and friends. I try to fight it off, but sometimes I have thoughts. Like if I am not a trans person, if I am normal, or if I don't exist at all, maybe the people supporting me doesn't have to fight for something they are not a part of, and doesn't have to burden themselves with my problems.
@Rain Dreamer: Please don't feel guilty about being yourself. The people supporting you don't "have to fight," they can walk away just like Colin did. But they *choose* to fight because they believe you're worth fighting for. :)
@Rain Dreamer: Hey. Don't have that attitude. As @Just Another Rain-Beau said, your supporters could just walk away, but they choose to stay because you're worth it~.
Another thing that kind of pokes a hole in the bottom of the JessiFara hopefuls' ship is, isn't Jessica straight?
Considering a) I'd unconsciously assumed that Colin had set up this meeting and b) I'd considered the possibility he wanted to become a part of Fara's life so he could, in his opinion, "save Ryan from her bad influence", I'm pretty relieved by this turn of events.
I also think it's better that Colin's honestly admitted how he's feeling and left the situation. It isn't very fair on Fara that he gave her no chance to respond, but lets look at this realistically; he's not Aiken - who wants his sibling in his life, despite struggling to accept her - he has, bluntly, no motivation to want Rain in his life. He hit it off with Fara, but they hadn't had time to build a deep connection. From that point of view, what would Fara really gain from responding?
Neither of them particuarly want their romance back. Colin doesn't want the complication and Fara needs someone who has unquestionably accepted her niece. Yes, there's a slim chance that Fara could say something which would get him thinking but more than likely, all her repsonding does is give them both a chance to get angry. Better to cut it off cleanly and accept that you can't win them all. There are still people who have trouble with other races, other genders, other lifestyles... People like that are always going to exist, for everything. Better they're people like Colin, who admit what they can't handle and walk away with as few bitter feelings and possible, than people like the Strongwells, who cause a huge fuss and make their own family suffer.
Well, that didn't quite go down the way we were expecting :)
Nice of Colin to keep things civil. Bad of him to not even want to try to change.
Poor Fara, getting her hope up, then being turned down :( But at least she's rid of Colin now.
And finally cheers for Jessica pointing Fara back to Vincent ^_^
>Can it really end like that though? Have we seen the last of Colin?
Boo bigotry. Hurray self-awareness.
Whether or not his opinion progresses any further doesn't matter to me. He's gotten to the point that he'll back away from trans issues rather than attacking them. You can't win 'em all and that's the next best thing. I hope he's gone from this story for good.
ahhhhhgh, VINCENT, i've fbeen waiting 4 this ship 4 evr since i me Vincent mmmmmmmmmmm :D
I'm gonna die if Vara isn't real .________.
I feel like the question that was asked on the previous page is kinda... pointless now. I mean, if it didn't seem to matter for Colin in the long run anyway, what was the point? *shrugs*
Still, I'm hoping for Vincent to swoop in anyway so... yay.
The point of Colin asking Fara's forgiveness was that he wanted to wipe the slate clean, so he could move on from this without looking back. He didn't want to pursue a relationship anymore, but as the previous page shows, he does feel some regret for what he said. And if you consider the fact that it took almost two months for him to contact her again, he's actually been sitting on those regrets for a while. He wanted that forgiveness so he wouldn't have to worry about it anymore.
Of course, Fara didn't forgive him. Maybe this'll be a wake up call for him, causing him to change his attitude and educate himself. Maybe he'll continue to lament over this, wallowing in his self-pity a while longer. Maybe he'll just come to resent Fara, placing all the blame on her so he can move on. It's hard to say. I'd rather just leave it up to reader interpretation.
Wooooow, not even an apology of "sorry I was being a jerk." Fara was too good for him all along, and I'm curious how Jessica's idea is going to go down after their last exchange
Well, this page ended on a bit of a cliffhanger. Not really, but I just can't wait for the next page! I really wanna see what happens~! >u< Well, I hope Fara and Vincent get back together. It would make them both happy. And it's final. Colin's a jerk. I hope Fara never has to deal with him again. He didn't even apologize for what he said about Rain!
I got the Rain books today. Now I can read the bonus chapters ^_^
Was volume 1 printed at a lower resolution on purpose?
To this day I'm still not sure what caused the lower res in Volume 1. I did everything exactly the same way when preparing Volume 2 and it does not have that problem. I'm sorry I don't have a better answer than that, but I am aware of it and trying different things to fix it. And I'm also trying my best to make sure it doesn't happen with future volumes.
All that said, I hope you enjoy the books. :)
THEY WERE THE CUTEST TOGETHER
MY ONE STRAIGHT SHIP KILLED
It annoys the crap out of me that Colin started this page with a question, then threw a wall of text at her and walked out. He didn't give Fara the chance to reply to that question at all. I mean, sure, she wasn't really sure what she was doing either, but at least give her the chance to reply damn it.
*Reads the author comments* Oh...
Well, good job on that one, Jocelyn.