I already practically wrote a novella above. I'm not sure I have much, if anything, to add down here.
It's all good. It HURT. But it's that good kinda hurt because I know she'll get past even this.
I'm just not looking forward to (but still looking forward to) seeing all the fallout.
I'm kinda confused as to why people would demand the story to be changed. If you can't handle the story then don't read it. It's not going to be a particularly great story if when Rain comes out as trans and everyone accepts her and everything is hunky dory, now is it. People have to go through trials and tribulations in order to get to the happy ending and you shouldn't have to apologise for creating such a trial.
Stories are supposed to make us feel, be it joy, sympathy or anger. It's all part of the fun of reading. If people can't handle that and demand the story to be changed as a consequence then maybe reading is not the past time for them.
I love your story Lynn and I hope you never feel pressured into removing anything because you feel some people wouldn't handle it. This is rain's story and we are all here for the ride.
@SaviourInDistress: There are ways to make a story about a person being trans, coming out, and there being no issues and yet have it still be a good story.
The thing about that though is that the focus of the story would be required to be elsewhere. Them being trans, coming out, and there being no issues would be part of the story, yet not the driving force of the story.
So in a story which IS driven by someone being trans and progressively coming out, then yeah, you're gonna need to show the trials and tribulations in order to have a good story.
I cannot speak for everyone, but for me I completely understand where you're coming from. Sometimes we like to feel sad and angry but in a safe place like a book or webcomic (I know I do). It helps us prepare for when those emotions come out in our lives elsewhere. In short, my response is "it's all good!" :P
And in case no one else says it, I would just like to say thank you for having the courage to post the last page and not editing or removing it. I believe it is a source of good, and while I am not trans, I have been through similar events in my own life. So thank you for your passion and courage.
The latest page, while quite shocking, was brilliant. It's not hard to make me cry, but the writing that makes me cry must be full of emotion. I'm a farely new viewer (had to catch up with 24 chapters), but I still love this comic.
You shouldn't have to apologize, the back-lashers should."Oh, something made me cry. Unfave!"
I'm not saying th@t people shouldn't get called off for hating something. But hating something that makes you feel?
I think the page was really good. As someone who isn't trans, it made me realise how things that may seem symbolic or small can have a huge impact and ruin a trans person's day (or longer) because of the lens they see everything through due to their experience.
I also think it's good for the story not to be completely positive. I'm glad that Rain has tons of support and understanding friends and family, and I think the story is generally positive, but there wouldn't be much to talk about if there was never any conflict.
Screw anyone who tells you to take that post down.
I've been reading for ages now and I don't think I've ever actually commented.
But that page...it's part of the story and I don't see any reason for the backlash. As stereotypical as 'long hair on girls' is, Rain is still a girl despite her hair length or anything else.
I think she's going to rock short hair.
About a year ago I voluntarily got my hair cut. I was still early in my transition at the time, and as my hair was badly damaged from the effects testosterone had on my body. At the time I was fresh out of college and looking for a job, and lived at home. My mom didn't give me much of choice and probably would have forced the issue if I hadn't volunteered... the results left me feeling devastated for weeks after. My hair has recovered since well beyond what it ever was, but for a long time after I couldn't even stand having my gf touch it it would freak me out so badly.
At any rate, I just wanted to say that I love the comic, and the twist.
have written a number of dark stories that we now refer to as fairy tales. in the original cinderella as i have seen it reported the ugly stepsisters did some really gruesome things to make their feet fit the glass slipper. rain is lighter reading by comparison.
You SHOULD be flattered. I wanted to punch Joffrey in the face too YES I'M PUTTING YOU ON THE SAME LEVEL AS MARTIN
@ZeDingo: Pfft, just the SAME level?
I'd rate Jocelynn higher!
Reading that page I honestly had that feeling of my heart dropping into my gut. There's no need to change it or anything, this kind of stuff (and far worse) happens for real and while I didn't see it coming its not something surprising and I'm really interested as to what is going to happen next. If a story can impact your feelings then you're doing a good job and I look forward to reading on.
On my end, I was afraid after seeing it that I would have nightmares. (I sort-of did, but not nearly as bad as I was worried about.)
It was a very powerful page. This might not make much sense to you, Jocelynn, but in a way, Rain has become a bit like my personal Bible. It's a guiding light in my life, helping me through my hardships, so seeing something so hurtful happen to Rain was intensely distressing.
I've never felt more worried for a character than I am for Rain right now. It's too real. Yet all the same...I know things will (eventually) somehow get better. Rain will find a way. And that's an encouraging thought to have.
It happened to a friend of mine in real life. It was devastating. Thank you for writing this page. It needed to be drawn.
the page was incredible,i feel you did a amazing job with this.keep going with doing what you like and screw the people who want to take page down
These pages ... amazing. So much emotion packed into such a small space.
I fell behind for several days and am just now catching up. Don't change the pages. The tears I shed for Rain ... well, you're an amazing writer.
Jocelynn, the last page was worth the emotion felt by us readers. It shows that you are willing to go through personal pain to show us all the types of things us transgenders have to endore on an emotional level. Thank you, Jocelynn, for all you have done. You make proud to be transgender.
Oh, Jocelynn, I hope your wife was there for you while you were creating the last page and crying over it.
I have to say, the moment I saw her ponytail lying there my eyes widened. I actually audibly gasped when I saw a full shot of her face.
I thank you for that page. It was moving beyond words. It's the first time in a long time a story online or off has affected me so greatly.
It's a sad reminder of what I would face were I ever to admit my true orientation. However much people wanted it gone situations like this need to be seen and talked about.
Wait, have people really asked you to take the page down? I get that it can be distressing for people who've dealt with stuff like that, but what they're asking kind of goes against, you know, freedom of speech and all that.
You should never apologize for making someone sad or angry through your writing. The whole point of art is to make people feel things. In succeeding to do that to such a degree, you have taken your comic to the next level. Congratulations on that.
I love this comic and I plan to continue reading. Having a character who never has to struggle is not a realistic character. It's because Rain and her friends deal with realistic problems and drama that this comic felts so relatable and engaging. If certain readers would rather you change your artistic expression because it bothers them, then they simply don't need to read. That may sound harsh, but it's the facts. I can understand trigger warning, but a demand to erase and redo the story is not just disrespectful, its censorship and oppressing artistic expression.
There is nothing to apologise for. Yes the last page was shocking, and anyone with an ounce of empathy in them can feel the the devastation that this has caused Rain.
If we cared less about her and her struggles then the page would never have been as powerful. It's a testament to what you're doing that so many people have felt the need to comment.
Those who are asking you to change it really shouldn't be, because this happens to some people, and yes it's horrible, and yes you wouldn't wish it on anyone, but terrible things happen, and you have to get through them. Yes they're hard and yes they leave scars but it they're also a testament to your strength.
If nothing else, I feel closer to Rain now because of it, so much so that I've started a doodle whilst only half watching one of my tennis heroes play. (This hasn't ever happened so please take it as a compliment.)
It was shocking. It made my jaw drop and I just stared at the page in horrified silence for the longest time. I didn't expect for her dream to go so wrong, and I didn't read the signs, but going back and looking at it, I probably should've seen this.
Still, this does strike me as something that would happen. I don't hate the page. I don't hate you for writing the story this way. I just hate the fact that Rain has to go through that (I empathize with characters far too easily).
I wish to see where this goes. I know her friends will support her. I expect her brother to comfort her. Most of all, I expect major karma to bite Kellen in the ass.
As a woman who started transition long after Male Pattern Baldness set in, I know how devastating losing one's hair can be. It used to be down past my waist, and because I went completely bald on top, it looked god-awful. I had to cut it.
I donated it, of course, and I hope some little girl got to enjoy it.
While I was still trying to pretend to be a man, I cut my hair short, and had that god-awful "half-halo" look going for a while. Everyone commented how much better I looked, but I was miserable.
Finally, after enough pressure from my ex-wife and other friends who knew my secret, I started shaving my head. I took charge of my baldness. And I don't intend to wear a wig, at all. In point of fact, I intend to get my scalp tattooed. I've already conferred with my artist and have a design in mind, and we're going forward with the outlining on August 15th. <3
So I understand the devastation Rain must be going through, to an extent. There's a level of betrayal we both went through, though mine was my own body, and Rain's was someone else. I can't help but imagine that there must be an insidious desire to lash out and get revenge...
If anyone needs someone to talk to, feel free to reply to this, or find me on Facebook. I'm not a therapist, but I know how we can hurt, and how much it can help just to have someone to talk to...
@Kaitlyn MacRitchie: Are you getting a hair tattoo to make it look like you have a shaved head with no male pattern baldness, or are you getting a more designed tattoo, like an image? Just curious, because bald women can be very pretty so I think the idea of a hair tattoo is an awesome alternative to wearing a wig
Although the last post hit me pretty hard because I just thought inside " ooh crap, stuffs about to get hard for her", I think shes going to come out of this situation much stronger. Also, possibly, with a "missing" sister and wanted Aunt.
Seriously, I kinda now hate Kellen. Like, push her under a bus level of hate.
@TJTheGamer: I hate Kellen too. I want to see someone, if not hurt her, then destroy her favorite possessions and as many of her clothes as possible. There's no way to do anything to her like what she did to Rain but I'm imagining myself doing those things right now. How DARE she.
I don't think you have any need to apologize... I mean, yeah.... that was hard to read. I cried. But its your story and you're allowed to do whatever you want with it. If someone has a problem with that they can go elsewhere. If you want a story that has a trans woman that doesn't deal with the hardships of being trans, go read questionable content. This is a story of the struggles of a trans girl. Shit is going to suck occasionally.
I didn't see it when it was posted... but this stuff does happen, and she will make it through. But fuck her sister to hell. She is irredeemable as far as I am concerned.
Jocelyn, I just wanted to say that I've been reading your comic for a long time now and I cannot even begin to describe how much it has affected my life. I wanted to thank you for posting all of your pages and providing hopes for a better tomorrow alongside the harsh truths of contemporary society. Like you said on this page, this comic can serve as a reminder that things can get better, but even the wildest dreams need a reality check. I appreciate all that you have done by posting this comic and allowing it to provide solace for others like myself. You are one of the reasons I am proud to be myself, and I thank you for that.
A story that can make you feel sad, angry, depressed, or even make you lose hope all together doesnt mean that its bad. Honestly I feel like any story that has the impact to make you feel such strong emotions is written fantastically. keep on doin whatcha doin girl :)
It was hard to read, and I've been thinking about it since.
Monday I was fired from my job. Losing my Health insurance. The reasons I was fired were such a level of BS, I have lawers jumping for it, though I myself am unsure of my own case.
This was while my car was in the shop for trasmission issues.
After telling my friends about this they were trying to console me.
My response was "I have more than 20 years of experience with life sucking and depression. I'm smarter and stronger now. This stuff ain't even a thing."
As I go from 'justin' to 'Brooke', more and more, I become indomitable.
Life happens, and that is sometimes bad. We have the strength to move past that, and improve our life on our terms. That's what being Trans* really is.
I can't wait to see how the cast deals with all of this. (Aiken as much as any of them.)
In my opinion, there is nothing to be sorry about. What happened to Rain is very feasible considering her sister and this type of drama is both realistic and good for character development. As another note, again in my opinion, an additional reason why I liked what was done with it, even as i hurt reading it, is that for those people who are not trans but are allies reading this and are trying to better understand what being trans can be like such actions can help illustrate what it can be like for us to go through various events.
Sure this dreged up some very depressing thoughts with myself (I have a very anti-trans family, and Kellen reminds me a lot of my younger sister's personality) but I would never ask much less dream of insulting Lynn by demanding that she take it down.
this is still a good addition as it shows the uglier, shall we say "sociopathic side" of being different than some would prefer you to be.
Commenting on the comic though, I would not be the least bit surprised if Rain & Emily Leave that night & Rain breaks off all contact with Kellen, that was a very low thing for Kellen to do.
Good for you. Stories have to have good and bad in them in order to hold our attention.
If Rain was just full of shiny happy things it would not allow us to connect with it and feel like it was in some small way part of our lives.
While this is pretty horrible, I'm glad it was included. I don't think most realize what trans folks have to go through, and unfortunately this one of the tings, well or something similar. Much much worse has happened to trans people too; it is so unfortunate.
I cried when i read that last one. The whole dream felt like it was leading up to something bad to me but it still hurt when it got there. People asking for it to be changed have to as you said realize this does happen. Horrible things happen when people don't want to accept who you are. People have done and said some pretty sick things to me through out my own transition and i really wish a hair cut was the worst. I am interested to see how the story develops from here.
I'd say that for me personally, I cannot be angry that the previous actions were included. I can be mad at the characters, but I cannot be mad that it was part of the story. I was both sad and angry when I saw it, but this is the kind of reaction I love to have when reading.
Wow... However much I got peeved at what a character did...
It was at the character, not the author. I'm surprised people have asked for the page to be removed... Putting trigger warnings up kinda ruins the impact of scenes like this for those that aren't affected - but I guess it does for people that don't see it coming.
What did people honestly expect with a story that covers the highs and lows of a situation.
I mean goddamn, one of the characters I have has one hell of a rough ride. Have I rewritten it because I think I should for the sake of other people... Hell no. I may change the handling of it for the sake of narrative and story flow n all that, but not because some people find it objectional.
It's all about how such an event is handled.
THAT is what people get irked about the most. I mean GoT has a lot of backlash because it treats terrible things like another walk in the park.
Trust your gut, stick with what you have planned,remain strong and tell the story the way that YOU wish to tell it.
You know, that last page struck me to my core, I remember actually, this one time when I basically had to get a haircut because I was going to highschool to avoid bullying, ( didn't work by the way, in case anyone else is reading this don't get your hair cut just to avoid bullying, that is my recommendation). Anyway when I did, I remember I was in a catatonic state, I remember that feeling even to this day. It is a feeling no one should have to go through, and as much as it is a deplorable, or perhaps even because of it, I am deeply glad, even if I am left with A seething rage at the very idea that this could and does occur, I, as previously stated, am shaken to the core of my being, by it. So I want to say thank you writer, thank you for allowing to feel something of such substance, thank you dear writer, for telling the story of us boys, girls, and everyone in between. Thank you, just,
thank you. :)
I'm amazed that anyone would be mad at /you/, I'm mad at Rain's sister and I want to choke her out but honestly I agree with everything you've said. This makes me feel something, something deep and to my core, something that just happy stuff wouldn't reach, and something that will make the release later even better. So as mad as I am, I'm excited to see what comes next, and I love Rain and you and this comic even more. You're an awesome writer and artist <3
I appreciate when authors warn their more vulnerable/sensitive readers. Bits of reality, do keep people alert to possible dangers. So I understand the reasoning.