So, a couple weeks ago, I had the fun anniversary of being on hormones three years. Tomorrow is a different kind of anniversary.
One year ago tomorrow, I was told I had testicular cancer. It was caught very early, and was very treatable (although it was still the most aggressive kind), so the ordeal seems to be over now. As far as cancers go, I was extremely lucky.
But it was still the biggest ordeal of my life. I still had to go through two surgeries leaving two probably permanent scars on my body, four total months of recovery, the most misgenderings I've ever dealt with in my life, a great deal of depression, the anxiety of thinking about my mortality, and the knowledge that no matter what happens in my future, I will always be "the woman that had testicular cancer" (I'm told I'm one of three recorded cases in the world, and the first recorded case of a trans woman with this specific type of testicular cancer). All of this within the span of the worst 6-7 months of my life.
It weirds me out to think that at this exact time one year ago, I had no idea. All I could think about at the time was how Smash Bros 3DS was coming out in a couple days (which would act as a coping mechanism for me through the next few weeks while I waited for my first surgery).
The only positive I really take from all this, is that I beat it. I wear this bracelet ALL the time to remind myself of that. It reminds me that I am stronger than I give myself credit for. And it reminds me that whatever I'm going through - whatever's hurting me or upsetting me - I've been through worse, and I've conquered it.
To everybody reading this, make sure you check yourselves.
Another thing specifically for my trans sisters: For me, this was discovered by my doctor because despite two years of HRT at the time, my testosterone levels suddenly started rising to higher than it even started for no reason that made sense. It's what helped catch this so early. It's funny in a way, that being trans may have actually saved my life in that regard (go figure), since a cis person probably wouldn't know their hormone levels. So if you start to see a similar inexplicable rise - don't immediately fret, it could mean a lot of things. But if it happens, there's never a better time to check yourself.
I would say the same for trans men, but I admit I don't know if the hormone thing works the same way. But still, you guys check yourselves too. I know it's unpleasant, and for some of us, it may invoke dysphoria. But we trans folk - no matter which way we're going - are not exempt from getting certain types of cancer just because we're trans or taking hormones or whatever. The cancer won't care. And trust me when I say you want this taken care of as soon as you can.
And this has been my first ever cancer PSA. I sincerely apologize if this is a bummer post, but it's extremely important. Take care of yourselves, Rain Beaus. Be happy, be strong, and stay healthy. I love you all, and have a wonderful rest of the day. :)
(Don't worry. Pages are still coming later too.)
This is an inspiring PSA. Thank's for writing.
I never knew you had cancer.
The more you know.
You are a very strong woman, and I'm happy for you.
Keep going strong! @LittleLynn84
As always, wishing you nothing but love, kid.
Congrats for the fight! I'm glad you're doing good Lynn. Keep strong!
Thank you so much for sharing this with us. I'm very happy that you're with us to put up this PSA. As I just turned 59, I reckon it's time for me to visit my urologist anyway ...
You are so strong :) <3