First Thing in the Morning

posted April 26th, 2016, 5:32 pm


average rating: 5.00
post a comment
author comments
view LittleLynn84's profile

April 26th, 2016, 5:35 pm

LittleLynn84

reply

To start, I'm just going to say that I'm actually going to go out of my way to not have too many two-pagers this chapter. There were so many in the last chapter, it was kinda killing me, so I'm keeping it as light as I can. This instance in particular is an exception because it was written as one page, but I don't know how I thought that was all going to fit on just one page. XD

Anyway, getting on-topic: I can't claim to speak for all trans women, but physicality in a relationship can be tricky when one party is repulsed by their own anatomy. Even in the case of Rain and Emily who aren't doing anything more than kissing. Rain's body will respond to certain stimuli whether she wants it to or not. And then there's "morning wood", which is just kinda what happens when she wakes up. Whatever the cause, it's hard to deal with when you don't want it. And as though it has a mind of it's own, it does not like to be ignored...

If I may be very honest, when my wife and I first started going out, I was afraid of her even looking at that part of me. But then she said stuff like, "So what? You're still a woman" without batting an eyelash. It doesn't erase the dysphoria, but it did (eventually) make me at least a little less self-conscious around her. And that's what I was going for with Emily here. She knew about Rain's body going into this, and she accepts that and tries to take as neutral a stance as she can. It doesn't solve the issue, but maybe in time it can help not freak out so much over genuinely accidental contact.

On a side note, as a disclaimer I should say that some trans folk have less/no qualms with the parts they were born with. I don't want to give off the idea that hating your body is a requirement for being transgender, because it really isn't. We all experience transness differently. It's just that in the case of Rain (and myself) she is exceedingly uncomfortable with her anatomy.


©2004-2016
Rain, all characters and all other aspects of the story are copyright material belonging to me.

Like Rain on Facebook!
Buy Rain - Volume 1 and 2!
Vote for Rain on TopWebComics!
Donate to help the author of Rain
And I'm selling shirts (and notebooks) now too! Come check it out!

end of message

September 26th, 2017, 4:56 pm

Advertisement

reply

end of message
user comments

April 26th, 2016, 5:59 pm

Guest

reply

Morning wood... I have forgotten what that is like. :)

end of message
view Nesagsar's profile

April 26th, 2016, 7:23 pm

Nesagsar

reply

@Guest: Despite possessing the equipment I have circulatory issues which prevent that function. As a young pansexual genderfluid person with a particularly sexual mind it really sucks to not be able to use it.

end of message

April 26th, 2016, 11:58 pm

Grenartia

reply

@Nesagsar: Many hugs to you. I don't know the problem firsthand, but I know what its like to go without, and it really does suck. Though, I've heard that there are ways to alleviate that need without the need to activate circulation in that region. I don't want to go any more in depth, though, because I'm not quite sure how NSFW I can get here.

end of message

April 28th, 2016, 9:59 pm

can't think of a nme (Guest)

reply

@Nesagsar: what's the name of the circulatory issue? it sounds like either build up of fat or cholesterol in the arteries.

end of message

April 26th, 2016, 6:53 pm

moomin (Guest)

So cute!!

reply

<3

end of message

April 26th, 2016, 7:56 pm

vlad (Guest)

reply

See, this is why Rain is one of my favorite comics, you just do such a great job of putting that human element into every page. :)

end of message

April 26th, 2016, 8:11 pm

Jess (Guest)

reply

Yikes, that's embarrassing! I'm so glad that Rain/Emily seem to be working out though! And don't worry Rain, that goes away with hormones, for the most part.

end of message

April 26th, 2016, 8:21 pm

Ash (Guest)

reply

Until that last panel I thought it was going to be a morning breath issue.

end of message
view MediocreArts's profile

April 26th, 2016, 8:25 pm

MediocreArts

reply

Raine you know its bad to sleep with earrings on XD

end of message

April 26th, 2016, 10:38 pm

Widdlemow (Guest)

reply

@MediocreArts:

Well, Rain just got her ears pierced the day before or so. You're supposed to keep the studs in for about a month or two so the holes don't close :)

end of message

April 26th, 2016, 10:41 pm

AzraelRhincon

reply

@Widdlemow: Hahaha... whats the saying again? "Fools seldom differ."

end of message

April 26th, 2016, 10:39 pm

AzraelRhincon

reply

@MediocreArts: Actually, they are fresh earrings, usually you're given some kind of smaller "replacement studs" for the night, but in the first few days/weeks you should try and not take them off as much as possible so the holes dont close up again.

end of message

April 26th, 2016, 9:39 pm

Serena (Guest)

LOLified

reply

LOLified: equal parts funny and mortified

Poor rain having to deal with that so early in there relationship. I am glad that after a year on hormones that situation only happens rarely and usually only with deliberate effort.

I so so feel for her, but the look on her face is so funny. And Emily s response so perfect.

end of message

April 27th, 2016, 12:56 am

Arcanist Lupus (Guest)

reply

I'm sorry, Rain. I feel for you, I really do. But you're adorable when you are mortified, and this scene is really hilarious.

Heck, this would be embarrassing even if it was Emily and Ryan (totally average guy!). Not that Emily and Ryan would likely be allowed in the same bed together. The dysphoria is just icing on the embarrassment cake.

end of message
view Anna Rei's profile

April 27th, 2016, 2:09 am

Anna Rei

reply

I had this problem with my girl friend to I was with. I feel very uncomfortable much like Rain. I was glad to see someone put this in a web comic finally. I never liked having male parts or felt they were mine. They just felt like some thing in my way though I am attracted to females. And some times males. But more often females then males. I feel like I am a lesbian most the time. My girl friends always ended being up bisexual females who say, think, dress, and act like they are males but they are happy with staying as they are in having a female body. It is strange how that works out for me some times. :P
My Go Fund Me. Please help. https://www.gofundme.com/68zqypmc

end of message

April 27th, 2016, 3:43 am

RainDreamer (Guest)

reply

Oh my. I wonder, if Emily hugs her, would it get worse? XD

end of message

April 27th, 2016, 7:49 am

(V)(;,,;)(V) (Guest)

reply

First time me and my bf slept in the same bed he was like "WFT is poking me?". I had to explain to him that cisguys have this thing called morning wood. I'm the little spoon now. XD

end of message

April 27th, 2016, 1:03 pm

(V)(;,,;)(V) (Guest)

reply

To be fair, he was pretty understanding...after he leaped out of bed, that is.

end of message

April 27th, 2016, 9:06 am

Asche (Guest)

Only one day has passed?

reply

Okay, today (in comic) is Feb. 26. (Post #823)

The day Rain started school after her hair got cut was Feb. 25 (post #730.)

So all this drama -- facing school with new hair style, going to the mall, meeting Allison, getting Emily to move in, admitting she has a crush (love), etc. -- all of this took less than 24 hours???

Boy, I hope my life never gets that "interesting!"


Also, Feb. 25 was posted back in September. Feb. 26 started, what, 7 months later in real time. The Endo appointment is in two weeks, comic time. Does that mean we're looking at, what, 7 years real time before she starts HRT?

I mean, it's been interesting and enjoyable and I'm all for "slowing down and smelling the flowers," but ....

end of message
view LittleLynn84's profile

April 27th, 2016, 10:52 am

LittleLynn84

reply

@Asche:

It's been February for over two years worth of posts now. So yeah, that's webcomic time for you. There's probably a bit of a time skip coming up though, because I can't take much more of February. XD

end of message

April 28th, 2016, 1:04 am

Don Edwards (Guest)

Webcomic Time

reply

Grrl Power started with a few pages of introduction then went into a flashback. Over four years later, it reached the second day of the flashback.

Freefall began in 1998 and it isn't necessarily clear whether or not an entire month has passed yet. Two months, almost certainly not.

I'm told there are more extreme examples.

end of message
view Karmic Retribution's profile

April 27th, 2016, 8:59 pm

Karmic Retribution

reply

Ouch. I don't know that feel, being a DFAB Agender. That probably sucks.

end of message

April 28th, 2016, 8:48 am

The Aussie Bloke (Guest)

reply

My brain has decided that Rain's face in the third panel is the result of Emily grabbing her butt.

end of message

May 1st, 2016, 11:21 pm

formerly whirly-twirly-fangirl (Guest)

reply

@The Aussie Bloke: You're brain is awesome and I wish I could hang out with it.

end of message
view Barn0wl's profile

April 28th, 2016, 1:51 pm

Barn0wl

reply

Mad me laugh and made me feel bad for Rain all at once! You do know how to mix up the emotions Jocelyn! :D

end of message

April 28th, 2016, 6:12 pm

Dieter M. (Guest)

reply

Hey, some of us who aren't trans also have intimacy issues stemming from being repulsed by our own bodies. So it still makes a lot of sense.

end of message

May 3rd, 2016, 7:08 pm

Joss (Guest)

reply

I don't know how common it is, but I'm a transwoman who isn't bothered by her ... downstairs equipment. It's one of the reasons it took me so long to realize I was trans. I kind of like being "different".

end of message

June 6th, 2016, 8:21 am

inkybinky3

Kellen

reply

@LittleLynn84: She looks so much like Kellen on this page!

end of message
view plasticwrap's profile

July 18th, 2017, 4:12 pm

plasticwrap

reply

I believe the word you're looking for, Rain, is "mortifying."

end of message
view Muffin_Pan's profile

July 24th, 2017, 11:16 pm

Muffin_Pan

reply

February 26th is my B-Day!!!

end of message
post a comment