Whatever That Was

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August 4th, 2017, 5:16 pm

LittleLynn84

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Fun fact: This is a true story. Like in Rain's case, it wasn't serious, but my first kiss was with a girl in kindergarten, and I was made fun of for it until the seventh or eighth grade. I was super-closeted as a kid, so my gender identity played can't have played a part. I guess besides being quiet, kissing a girl was all they had on me. Elementary/Middle school is a weird time. XD

Once I got to high school, the teasing stopped. This is a little off-topic, but in my case, I didn't really get bullied or teased or... well, acknowledged really. I guess not having bullies was a plus, but I had very few friends too. I was pretty invisible. I have a hard time calling that an improvement. This is where Rain's story and mine differ, as she continued to get picked on (although the insults grew up).

There're a couple Chapter A references on this page. In the first panel, there're two random little girls off to the side, watching Rain and Allison's kiss. They're actually based on the same girls who make fun of Rain on one particular page. They're not terribly important, but it fit for them to be there. I probably had names for them way back when I wrote that chapter, but I don't remember what they were and it doesn't really matter. Make up your own names, if you like. ;P

In the last panel, Rain also touches her cheek while mentioning a "bad result from coming out". Allison slapped her when she came out back then, thinking Rain was making fun of her, but she has since apologized.

Anyway, that's enough yammering out of me. I hope you like the page, and feel free to share your thoughts on anything, as always. ^_^


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November 18th, 2017, 8:01 am

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August 5th, 2017, 1:13 pm

LittleLynn84

Sudden Comic Hiatus. Sorry. :(

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Hey, Rain Beaus. This is kinda out of the blue - and I'm really sorry to do this - but I think I need to take a bit of a hiatus.

In favor of being completely forward with you, I've been kinda stressed out for a while. Not so much with the comic, but life in general. And while my anxiety isn't stemming from the comic, per se, it's not helping. My struggle to balance everything going on in my personal life has been leading to my very frequently slapping pages together the day they go up. And when I have time to start rebuilding my page buffer, life happens for a week, and it all goes away again. It's frustrating - downright maddening sometimes - and I worry about having my frazzled rush to finish pages becoming apparent, because you deserve better.

And even through this, I was tempted to keep going through to the end of the chapter (which still honestly has a few weeks left). But as of this week I've been experiencing some nasty tendonitis in my drawing wrist, preventing me from drawing, killing my buffer again, and leaving me with nothing for the next page, and no way to even make a new page right now.

To top it all off, I had my first panic attack in over a year last night. It's becoming abundantly clear that maybe I ought to allow myself a break. Pushing myself any more than I already am is not going to help, so I'm going to just take this hiatus while I can.

I am sorry to drop this all on you out of nowhere, and I'm definitely sorry for the short notice hiatus, but I really think I just need to do this right now. I don't want you to worry about me though; I'll be okay. This hiatus is to assure exactly that, after all. This break will not be permanent, and I promise to let you know when I'm ready to come back as soon as I can.

Thank you so much, as always, for your understanding and your patience with me.

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August 4th, 2017, 5:26 pm

TranshumanAr (Guest)

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My first kiss what with a girl that I liked, but I broke her heart like an asshole. I wish I could punch my past self, but that would take away the responsibility I have. Back to the topic, childhood crushes are adorable, even if they can lead nowhere. Childhood is an age of discovery and imagination, and one we adults can only look back with nostalgia to laugh or cry.

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August 4th, 2017, 5:57 pm

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I was really confused for a second there because I got Allison and Ana mixed up and thought "wait, didn't Rain come out to Allison a few chapters ago? How could she have come out way back then too?" Whoopsy me.

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August 4th, 2017, 7:02 pm

CatPerson (Guest)

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@LittleLynn84:

Speaking of (sort of) young love, if you haven't seen the animated short, In a Heartbeat, do so immediately!

It's a story of gay puppy love that is impossible (for normal decent people) not to love!

I don't think I can give a link but you can Google it (if you can miss it at all ... it has gone tres viral!).

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August 4th, 2017, 7:37 pm

Leah (Guest)

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omg my guess was correct! <3

And panel 2's little Allison with a huge smile is adorable. Clearly the cooties defense was just an excuse.

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August 4th, 2017, 9:39 pm

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Nothing like the kiss happened to me, but I was made fun of from 5th or 6th grade up until 12th grade because people thought a boy liked me. We were friends, but it's not like we hung out all the time or anything. Honestly, they were grasping at straws, because I was so quiet that nobody that disliked me knew anything about me.

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August 5th, 2017, 9:42 pm

CatPerson (Guest)

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@LittleLynn84:

You don't owe us anything, it's all the other way around. You've been incredibly perseverent through major changes in your life.

Take all the time you need to feel better. That's the important thing!

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August 6th, 2017, 12:26 am

sunspark

Feel better

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PLEASE take the time to feel better. You owe that to yourself, and if there is anything that this weird life we all live should have taught us it is that no one is going to take care of us if we don't do that ourselves. Think of it the same way as the airbags in planes: you have to put your own on first. Always.

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August 6th, 2017, 8:37 am

Corrin (New Rain Beau) (Guest)

Do what you need to!

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@LittleLynn84: Breaking yourself and not being able to anything ever (for your loved ones or your fans) is -NOT- better than taking a break on us.

We don't -deserve- jack. Half of us, myself included, get this for free. Or at least I did, until I got so mad at someone as awesome as you worrying about us getting it for free that I decided to join your Patreon mid message. Even if I'm paying for bills and school debt and such, I can afford to give a bit to support something I enjoy. Even if there's a delay in that content, because I'd rather see that content eventually continue than not at all.

So speaking as someone who can at least sympathize with your recently noted troubles (enduring panic attacks, trying to work through injuries, constant stress from personal life problems), no one is going to (or at least, should) say that you don't deserve to take care of yourself. None of us are entitled to anything for free, and I'm sure those of us pledging to aid you aren't going to pull out the whip when you need the support the most.

I've learned more than a couple of things from reading someone else's experiences in a situation I'd never have understood before, and I'm sincerely grateful to do so. Whether that be after a week, or after a few, is no skin off my nose. And as has already been noted before me, that sentiment is hardly a solitary one.

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August 7th, 2017, 3:44 pm

Unknown (Guest)

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@Corrin (New Rain Beau):

Where's the "Like" button when you need it?

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August 7th, 2017, 8:18 pm

Agua (Guest)

Don't worry!

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@LittleLynn84: Don't worry about it! Your well-being is more important to us than updating your comic! I'm sure we Rain Beaus can all agree on this. Take care of yourself! We'll see you at the end of the hiatus.

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August 7th, 2017, 8:23 pm

Dzaka (Guest)

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@LittleLynn84: no prob's. take any time you need. i know all about anxiety and panic attacks. i can go a few weeks. couple months good. than out of the blue something triggers mine and i wind up feeling like i need to punch things and with a 160bpm heart rate

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August 8th, 2017, 5:52 am

Le fou (Guest)

Name

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@LittleLynn84: Sorry if this is personal bt I noticed that in the earlier comics, you sign C.D instead of Samara. Purely out of curiosity what happened to the C?

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August 9th, 2017, 1:31 pm

LittleLynn84

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@Le fou:

Sorry for the delayed response. I only just saw this now.

I signed Jocelyn C.D. before I had actually legally changed my name. At the time, I was planning on changing it to Jocelyn Charity. Charity as a middle name didn't really bear any significance though, other than that I liked the way it sounded and flowed with the rest of my name. For years, I had it planned that this was what I was going with too.

Fast forward to the day I would send in all the name change forms, I last second decided I wanted Samara to be my middle name instead. This is the name I would've been given had my parents known they had another daughter, so it had a bit more meaning to me.

And that's what happened to the C. That was about four years ago to the day now, which is crazy to think about. ^_^

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August 8th, 2017, 5:55 am

Le Fou (Guest)

All the time you need

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@LittleLynn84: I'm sure I speak for everyone when I say take all the time you need. And, whenever you are ready, we will all be waiting for some more heartwarming,wholesome Rain.

And, as someone who lives in Britain, I never thouht I would say that!

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August 10th, 2017, 12:48 am

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It's perfectly alright for you to need a break. I love your work, and I look forward to more of it when you're ready.

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August 11th, 2017, 11:29 pm

Sunflower4666 (Guest)

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@LittleLynn84: please please take care of yourself first. I'd much rather wait for Rain to return than know that you're burning yourself out trying to get things done on time.

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August 12th, 2017, 8:18 pm

Allie (Guest)

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I had a similar experience :) I'm not sure if we kissed or anything, but I did get fake "married" in the school playground to a friend when I was about 5, with a "ceremony" and I think half the other kids as guests and everything lol. Unfortunately when we started getting bullied for it I think I threw her under the bus, and that started a long tradition of me playing respectability politics in a vain attempt to be accepted by the boys :( there's nothing I regret more than all the people I hurt or pushed away to appease (other?) bullies

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August 16th, 2017, 7:27 am

toot (Guest)

We'll be here.

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As many others here have said: Please take the time to take care of yourself, first and foremost. We all will be here waiting patiently, at least I will with the rest of the Rainbows. ;)
While we do love our Rain fix every so often, our main concern is your health and well being. So don't worry about us. As long as you're happy and healthy, so are we.

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August 16th, 2017, 7:29 am

toot (Guest)

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Hehe, just had a giggle at the "thank you" message after commenting:
"Thanks for commenting on Whatever That Was!"
I love the accidental double meaning. :D

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August 18th, 2017, 12:44 am

Yuki (Guest)

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@LittleLynn84: I'm sorry I just saw this message. But you take as much time as you need. Lord knows if anyone can understand panic attacks it's me and they're no fun. Take care of yourselves, we'll be here when you get back.

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August 18th, 2017, 11:32 pm

RedRobin (Guest)

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@LittleLynn84: of course take as much time as you need! We need you in tip top shape, or we may lose our only Rain supplier! Seriously though, stress is no fun. I had a sudden panic attack at a Hot Topic today, and it took my friends half an hour to find me behind a track of
clothes. I sincerely hope you feel better and enjoy your hiatus. We will all be here for you when you return!

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August 19th, 2017, 2:56 am

Jj2003 (Guest)

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Love this comic so much! Please take your time and add on when you get the chance!

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August 19th, 2017, 11:49 am

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Hope you're doing well take what ever time you need we'll be waiting for your return whenever you feel like you're ready

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August 20th, 2017, 7:03 pm

Atelier (Guest)

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I also know an Allie who got fake married when they were younger they were 6 and unless that is you it's anot unusual coincidence

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August 21st, 2017, 9:56 am

Microrapter (Guest)

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@LittleLynn84: Hey, just checking in to make sure you're okay and all.

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